And Then, She Appeared

It’s funny, I hear it all the time: “You are SO lucky you’re a medium, you can talk to your mother whenever you choose.” I always laugh when someone tells me that; its funny to me because this has not been my experience.

My mother died in February of 2017. It was 13 days after I arrived at the hospice facility, 12 hours away from my home. I walked in her room and she was sitting straight up. She didn’t seem surprised to see me at all! I had received a call a few days before that it was time to say goodbye, so I flew out to be with her, and to my surprise I walked into the room to see her, all 85 pounds, sitting straight up in a chair next to her sister.

I was a little confused; I had seen her come to me in visions over the prior month to let me know she was going “home” (crossing over). She had lost so much weight over the previous two years but I seemed to look past it and only notice her strength. She was always a strong woman, but this was not what I expected AT ALL.

I smiled and said, “Hey, Mom!”

She stared blankly for a minute and asked me where my wife and son were. I told her that I had left them in Alabama and she laughed.

“I just saw them help you take the luggage down, are they downstairs?”

I was so confused but my aunt smiled at me and gave me a nod so I just played along. “Yes, they are down there.”

Then she (my mom) said she wanted to get her purse so we could all go out to eat; my cousin and her two sisters just encouraged her to sit back, because we weren’t going anywhere. I knew then she was living in two worlds.

The next 13 days were brutal. She was in and out of reality, and I held her hand as often as I could to let her know I was there and it was okay to go. The 7th day was difficult, it was my birthday and I grasped her hand tightly and begged her to let go. I asked her to go and be with her brother and mother who were waiting for her. Her eyes were closed tightly, she had not had consciousness for a few days, but a single tear fell from her eye and I could hear her, in my mind, clearly tell me she would not be leaving on my birthday.

She eventually passed 6 days after. On the 13th day she finally let go and went “home.” I felt her a few weeks after, and have had several instances where I have felt her so strongly that I had no doubt in my mind she was with me.

We had a … difficult relationship. My mother, she was always a vibrant and colorful woman, and I often felt she’d saved the world for so many people but often forgot me. I never felt like she loved me, that she was always seeking someone else that was better. When she died, I had so many unresolved feelings, but I also knew from our brief encounters that she did in fact love me; I could feel her pouring it to me, but I just couldn’t quite make the connections.

I have called to her several time since she has crossed over and received very little confirmation she was with me. I even thought for a while that I just could never be what she wanted, and that she must be with all my younger cousins and her sisters because I was somehow still unworthy of her love.

Fast forward to 13 months after her death: I was doing a reading for a beautiful woman. Her colors flowed into me like sugar melting into warm butter. Her energy was warm, kind and amazing. As I was doing the reading (mostly psychic stuff), I saw this woman’s mother come forward. She smiled at me and then flashed her personality at me.

She was cold, bitter, jealous and angry. I knew that her soul was at peace and that she was only signaling to me how she was as an Earth Walker. I described what I was seeing to this woman and how she was pouring her heart out to the sitter. Her love was so great it made me want to fall out of my chair, and that was when my mother appeared. I was dumbfounded, and not quite sure what to say or do. I continued to channel the mother for the sitter but my mother’s energy was so BIG, so OUTSTANDING I started to cry. The message for this woman was also the message for me. She was there in all her color and glory to tell me she loved me. They were piggy-backing off of each other with an exact message: “I pushed you and pushed you because I loved you.”

The things that were conveyed during this meeting will never leave me. I understood on a brand new level why my mother treated me the way she did. I saw movies from both the sitter’s mother and my own of their childhood, and the many things they endured in life. For the first time in my life I understood the phrase, “I did the BEST with what I had and what I knew,” more than ever. I could feel the love x2 with the sitter’s mother and my own. I conveyed the message as strongly as I could without breaking down and after the reading was over I could feel the embrace of my own mother, and I understood every part of her stubborn, mean ass better than ever.

I can feel her, and see her now. She sits at “The Bottom of My Heart,” where she used to tell me as a child she could be found if she ever died. She is there and embraces me wholly. She appeared unexpectedly and without me looking. I always wanted her love and acceptance, and for the first time ever, I have received it.

Emotions are what have prevented me from moving through some of my grief, but the woman I was reading helped me as much as I helped her by having a shared connection. It’s funny because she was referred to me by someone else that I admire and have connected to their mother on deep soul level. I felt like it was all part of a master plan to circle back around for a healing to take place between several of us.

I am deeply grateful for this experience.

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Meem

It was the night before the reading; this is how it happens sometimes, the Soul of the departed loved one will reach out to let me know they are ready to talk. I could see her, she had long gold pants and a matching short-sleeved shirt. She stood in front of me sparkling and gleaming. She was singing and I could hear her snapping her fingers to the beat of her own music.

Her smile was beaming and I could feel the personality shining through this amazing soul. I could hear her giving me her first name over and over. I finally told her I would need a middle name because I was already given the first name long before we had this encounter. My goal is always to validate the sitter, and while I may not always get names, I can usually get something to help verify to the sitter that the Spirit I am communicating with is in fact their deceased loved one.

She winked at me and I heard, “Lucille.” Then she showed me her hands, well manicured and full of jewelry. She was such a cool lady, and I was happy she was in my home. She was incredibly excited and ready to come through.

As the night went on and I was fast asleep in my bed, I woke up to someone gently rubbing my earlobe, and when I opened my eyes she was there sitting on my bed, tenderly smiling. She disappeared from my vision and I fell back asleep only to wake a few hours later to see her sitting on a gorgeous hand-carved wooden chair with a beautiful red cushion. She looked just like a queen on her throne; she smiled again and I fell back asleep.

The reading was scheduled for 9 AM the next morning. I prepared myself, as I always do before any reading, and I could feel her presence strongly. I understood a great healing would occur and I was fortunate enough to be the one to convey the information. What greater honor is there than to provide someone with the validation that their loved one is with them and sees, hears, and experiences their life with them?

Right on schedule I called the sitter. It was her grandmother that she was hoping would come forward. Little did she know that her grandmother had already been waiting for the reading to begin. Before I could even get out my little speech I like to give before the reading, the soul appeared in front of me clear as day. She immediately started giving me tons of information to validate her presence.

As I was conveying the information being shared, I referred to the Soul as “your grandma” to the sitter. Very loudly the soul clapped, “No! Don’t call me Grandma!” She laughed and laughed as I continued to fumble with the word Grandma throughout the reading, and every time she would shout in a thick accent, “C’mon, Shelby!! I don’t like the word GRANDMA! Do I look like a grandma to you?”  I kept hearing to call her, “ME,” or so I thought, and no sooner did I hear that, did the young woman speak up and say, “I called her Meem.”

As Meem poured her love out to the young woman, my body would wash over with goosebumps. Sometimes the love expressed during a reading causes intense emotions to surface, and this was no different. Being a part of such an incredibly strong connection makes it impossible to deny that life continues after we pass over.

I knew that her Meem was now her Guardian Angel, always trying to get the young woman’s attention, guiding her gently and whispering in her ear. I also knew that even though Meem never got a chance to spend physical time with the young woman’s daughter, she was there for the birth and every day after. She beamed proudly over the young woman, embracing her and kissing her cheeks.

I always say that Spirit is as subtle as the wind, but Meem showed that sometimes Spirit is a subtle as a brick through a window; we just have to understand the signs as they come in.

I do not usually write in about readings I do, but the connection I had to that Soul was so deep and full of love I wanted to share it. Meem, a strong teacher, helped me learn a lot that day about communication and trust. Her presence will never be forgotten, and even as I type this now I can feel her encouragement and love.

I am so grateful and honored to be a part of this life.

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Earth Vibration

Hello, my friends, I have been picking up a shift in world frequency for a little over two weeks. The last forty forty-eight hours were especially loud, and now the shift has settled into the new sound.

As many of you are already aware, the Earth hums. This is her “vibration” or frequency if you prefer that word. She is exactly like us, in that she is able to have shift of vibration. Like her, we have our own vibration. I have mentioned this in previous blogs, but would like to touch base on this again here.

Our overall vibration is made up of many many things around us and in us. I will use myself as an example. My overall vibration is made up of the many smaller vibrations emanating from within my physical body, which are caused from the vibrational state from my “other bodies” (ie. emotional, mental etc).

To keep things in more simple, 3D terms I will be talking here just about the physical body. Every one of our atoms carry a specific frequency, and if looked at clairvoyantly one can see that every part of you, the cells, organs, etc can be “talked to” as each carry a consciousness that IS you. This is how are bodies are formed, grow, and react to things like illness and stress, etc. As we raise our overall vibration it is actually the smaller frequencies that are changing, making up the overall “hum” of your vibration. This is done through shadow work, healing, LOVE, and experiences.

As we shift, the things around us shift. The people in your life may change, environments are different, you are always attracting what you are emitting. We as individuals (think of us like a cell) change and then collectively as one will raise their own personal vibration, they will find that they are triggering others to shift as well. That is how waves of a massive shift are shown to me clairvoyantly. It will appear like a giant wave that is a collective energy sweeping through and over things. This effects the Earth as well. I often think of us as a race and how we effect her energetically. While she has her very own hum, we are also influencing her, just as she influences is.

Now, with all of that said, I mentioned above a world frequency that I noticed a change in. Many people talk about “veils” and how it becomes thinner, or that there is a mass awakening. I have written before about energy lines, and viewing them in a linear fashion. When I do energy readings on someone I am able to view events on this line from the past to present or future.

I see the Earth line pretty clearly at this time, and I can tell you from my vision that this “mass awakening” is part of our evolution and has been happening since the beginning of earth’s time. It appears like a giant awakening now because we are here NOW, experience it NOW, and the momentum of it is the triggering of our continued evolution where we will all experience greater and greater levels of consciousness.

For an example, where compassion was given to someone by another human being ten thousand years ago, it would cause a small ripple or wave in the energetic line. Think of it like a title wave; as it goes down the line it becomes bigger and bigger and bigger. This is why people have been talking about energy speeding up or how more people are “waking up”now than ever before.

While I do not believe your actual heritage has a whole lot to do with your bigger picture as a soul, I do believe the families we are born into are specific for our evolution as well. We have imprinted traumas and experiences from our ancestors on our DNA, and as a soul comes into body they can use this information imprinted on the DNA to draw in certain experiences to deal with.

The free will of the matter is how we are choosing to deal with these experiences as they come in. We have all live thousands of lives, and that is just on this planet. The experiences we have chosen to deal with are the key here. This is how we raise our vibration on a multi-dimensional level. I am bringing all of this up because we are also a part of the earth, and her experiences. We have been here over and over and chosen to work with her, as she has with us. When I view her, she is an entity grounded in Source and loves us unconditionally. She is us, and we are her, not just as a mirror, but as mother and child, friend and lover.

Earth is in no trouble; she will be just fine long after we go. As I communicate with her, I realize how we as a species allow the ego and narcissism imprinted onto ourselves to play out. How egotistical for us to think we are killing her! Long after any species kills off resources that she lovingly provides to us and destroy ourselves (which has happened over and over and over), new species will evolve and she will still be here, just as she always has and always will be.

If our atmosphere becomes toxic and we all die due to our inability to love her, to love ourselves, then I promise life (just not us) will continue to prevail, just differently than it does now. What she is doing, and the state of her being, is a reflection of how much we love ourselves. Is it love and compassion we are living or something else? The best way to help her is to respect and love her and to HEAL YOURSELF. Raise YOUR vibration.

Her vibration shifts as she evolves, and we are experience not just her, but all of us collectively. This change that happened recently with her “hum” is beautiful and pulses out Love so strong it makes me cry tears of joy. This shift has caused a lot of debris that I view as sticky to get loosened up. It was in perfect timing of the whole Mercury in retro; it is our opportunity to face what is in our past holding us back.

Many common questions people ask themselves are, “WHY do I have money problems?” Where does that come from? Who told you you had to be poor? “WHY can I not find love?” WHY is that your truth? WHY do “bad” things keep happening to you, why do you feel like a victim? There are no victims and she is trying to help us all come to terms with the parts of our past, the lessons we have chosen (DNA imprints) to live and transmute. She is your ally and she wants to help us all become aware of our truest self. The pure beings of light that we are.

We are a seed of God, and when we are born we are given opportunities to bloom to our highest light. There are thoughtforms that we have created and perpetuated for thousands of years. They’re HUGE, but we can rise above them and know the truth. She has attracted us here to aid our evolution, just as we have come here to aid her in hers.

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Love(Christ Consciousness)

I have had quite a many awareness the last 22 months. Some feel very big and then there are those that feel very small. Recently, I have had a major experience, a collective of all the small awarenesses I’ve had. The dots of the universe connected for me, and for the first time I have been able to utilize a new sense.
I have always walked through life, as everyone does, experiencing this world with my 5 senses. Upon the awakenings that have occurred with me, I’ve learned to use my inner senses as well, such as clairvoyance, and intuition. I’ve worked with diligence to clear, center, and ground. The harmony and connection with my soul has become nearly effortless as a result.
On December 8th, I had a shift that occurred in my energy that has changed me, and my perception of all things. I have been practicing for some time now, bringing in Love(Christ Consciousness) and projecting it out to all things I am in contact with. As I have done this I have received love in return, sometimes instantly and other times over a longer period. At first, I would bring this Love in when I would remembered to, and the more often I did it the longer I was able to hold the vibration and project it out. My focus would increase.
These experiences were somewhat minor until the “explosion” of my heart chakra a few weeks ago. As I viewed my heart chakra it was projected way out and covered with a gold dust. I monitored the change with it and noticed as I was “channeling” this Love through my central channel and pushing it out, the gold dust particles were interacting with it on a new frequency, allowing me hold it for extended periods.

 

The awareness on December 8th happened as I was holding this vibration and pushing it out into the wildfires of California. Earlier in the week I struggled to do so because of a balance issue in my energy, but I knew in a snap that it was a learning experience, so I embraced it instead of allowing frustration to throw me further off course. The earth and Source were both trying to tell me something of great importance.
As I got myself back into a position to channel this Love, I began to have a closer look at this golden state that sits within my heart. The tiniest of the particles held significant information: actions of unconditional love that had been previously projected or received. The dots were connecting, I knew the more I was practicing this activity, the more I was retaining. It made sense finally what was happening; I was able to harness this Love from all action sent and received to grow my heart even more. I have been able to hold this vibration, minus about 4 hours yesterday, where I went outside my heart and used my physical senses to “understand” something. It was with that move that the greatest awareness of Source and Self were integrated.
I am allowing myself to stop trying to figure the world out with my mental and emotional bodies. I am learning now how to rely on the heart to “feel” my way around life and it’s secrets. Everything is revealed when I can let go of the emotional and mental bodies and live within the heart, and use my spiritual body to grow. It starts with channeling that Love from Source and expressing it, fairly, among every person and situation equally. When the personality or ego pipes up and tells me someone doesn’t deserve the same Love projected to them as someone else, I rebalance myself immediately.

 

Imbalance has taught me a great lesson, and it is all with love. Love is the leader of our Evolution in all soul growth. Through this expression we are all showing our true selves, the Christ Consciousness, the God within.

 

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Meditation 11.1.17

I have written about my process of being grounded and centered in another blog post so I am not going into the details of that here. Instead, I want to jump into what happened today after I finished with all of that and I sat in the center of my heart. I said, “Today I want to feel the highest vibration of myself, my true being.” I set this intention because I think on the physical plane we are often so accustomed to our current vibration that we cannot always feel it, or may not know or realize where we are sitting as far as frequency and our personal growth. Especially those that do daily work to increase the amount of light we hold, we expand always, but it is often a slow process so we are not feeling the frequency from the beginning to current state of the vibration. I think of it a lot like gaining weight. Often people don’t realize that are gaining weight until one day they say, “Why don’t my pants fit anymore!?” Upon weighing themselves they realize they’ve put on 10 pounds! Of course it didn’t happen overnight, it happened slowly until the pants just wouldn’t fit anymore. With this thought in my mind, I wanted to feel my personal vibration, and my growth. I wasn’t planning to write any of this, but I had become so emotional after the meditation, I decided that it might be important for me to keep track of this.

So, as I sat in the heart and set my intention, I brought my energy down to the center of the earth. Lately I expand myself here so wide that I go out past the edges of the earth, and from there I have been coming back up into Source. As I started this process in expanding my energy, things got really hot, as usual. This heat isn’t like the heat from the sun; it is a heat I could not describe if I tried. I went all the way out to the edge of the earth and began to bring this energy up, and as I was doing this, the sounds started to change and I heard a “woosh woosh woosh” as I was passing through the different aspects of myself, the higher chakras, going up, up, up. I anchored this in to Source and started to inhale the sweet Godlight that was surrounding me, anchoring into my heart which now held, and is, the Earth. We were all one for a brief moment. I pushed all of it out and back down into the center of the earth. This process has been happening to me for about a week or so, I think. When I came back into my heart I expanded again and now the Earth was in front me because I was huge. I pushed my energy back to her and through her and my energy surrounded and hugged her. I even kissed her! I pulled her back into my heart and I could feel the love being exchanged between us.

Physically, I chose to lay down this morning for this meditation. Suddenly, I became very aware again of my physical body and that my legs, all the way to my feet, were tingly. I have felt this before and knew it was because I was anchored into earth; it feels like she holds my legs sometimes when I go up. I chose to pull this energy up since I was very aware of it. I could feel it moving through my chakras and physical body all the way to my head. It is a slow and very “thick” energy. It is like a warm heavy blanket and feels amazing. As soon as it left my head I was propelled up so fast I started to lose my breath. When I leave the body it is often very jarring because of how fast it happens. As I was going up I was slightly aware of my physical body and how it was totally numb and tingly feeling, but I was more aware how quickly I was moving through the giant balls of light. Each one was brighter and brighter and each one had a pitch that got higher. I got to what felt like the top and it was SO loud! I started feeling this energy which was incredibly powerful just blast through me, it looked and felt like it was pressure washing chunks of darkness that had been stained on me, and when those pieces would fall off brilliant light popped through. The vibration was so incredibly powerful! I noticed everything was “shaking”. I have noticed this throughout my awakening at different times during meditation, and I have come to believe it is me merging with higher aspects of myself. This time was a shaking like I have never experienced. I didn’t fight it, there was no fear. I knew it was my soul contact and integration. Everything started spinning so fast, and there was so much light. I thought I needed to try to reground at this point because it was going so fast that I was starting to get nauseated. I thought about asking it to slow down, but at the same time the spinning was becoming a little uncomfortable, I was also experiencing a joy that I have never felt before. I started to sense a true embrace of the soul. I wanted it to last forever, when it started to slow I said I didn’t want it to stop, I didn’t want it to leave, I didn’t want to come back down. I heard a clear message that this vibration was not new, this was me, this was always happening, the embrace and the joy were always present, and that I was to come back down into the physical body and express light.

When I came back down into my body I laid very still for a while, trying to feel it all over again. I had a new awareness of who I really am, and where I am going. I don’t know the answer as to why we ever really come here. Some say it is for Soul growth, so we can constantly evolve in light by being a de-evolved being working our way back to Source. Other people have other reasons and honestly I don’t know at this moment that I really care what the answer is. I just know I am here, and I am there, and I am everywhere. So, for now, I will just play my part on earth. I feel like I lost something, a part of me, today. Maybe a darkness or a fear. I also feel like I gained something, a light, an inner peace. I looked my true self in the eyes and felt an unconditional love, joy, and hope. I cried for a good hour afterward. It was not from sadness, but from the incredible experience. I have had many encounters with the Soul, but as we are integrating more and more light, the vastness and beauty of all that is presents itself in bigger and bigger experiences.

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The End Is Your Beginning

Walter

Yesterday morning, a man named Walter appeared to me. I could see him clearly. He was a bit overweight, his old brown suit and red striped tie didn’t seem to quite match. He said his name over and over and each time I could smell the alcohol on his breath. He smiled at me, proudly displaying his yellow teeth. I had no idea who this man was and whenever I asked he just kept smiling.

That afternoon as I was speaking to my mentor, he came through again, very loudly calling his name out. WALTER! WALTER! The smell of alcohol was a bit nauseating. I asked my mentor if she knew of anyone named Walter. She said no. I chalked it up to a reading I was going to be doing later. When the time came to do the reading I didn’t see Walter, but I asked the client if she knew anyone named Walter and she told me she did not. I was a confused at this point but decided to let it go. A few hours passed and a woman I have never met contacted me. She was referred to me by another client, and I was thrilled because I always love when I can make clients feel confident enough with their readings that they refer others to me. I was also excited because it was the 2nd referral of the evening I had received!

As the woman and I were setting up her appointment Walter appeared again. “Walter!” he kept saying. So, I asked her if she knew a Walter, she immediately replied “Oh, my God! That is my Grandfather! He passed away 3 months ago from alcoholism.” And just like, that Walter grinned and disappeared.

Spirit never ceases to amaze me. I sat and wondered so many things through night. How did Walter know to come to me? How could he know she would contact me? All I know is that Spirit is a powerful force, and I am so grateful I have the opportunity to experience the things that I do.

 

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Meditation 9.22.17

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I sit in my heart when I meditate. I run light through my central channel, spend time in the Godlight, I balance, and I pretty much do all of the same things every day. After a while, sometimes I begin to receive information, but there are many days I still don’t understand everything I see.  I document it all anyway in hopes that one day I will come to know the messages that are being passed to me.

Today was no different; as the information begins to come through I pop open all the small chakras around my head. They hum in unison; it sounds amazing and still gives me goose bumps whenever I think about it. For me, sound is a big part of my learning. As someone that is losing my physical hearing, I have come to appreciate more and more the inner hearing I receive with great joy and gratitude. As the smaller chakras open, spin and start to hum I am overcome with a feeling of extreme joy and I know then that I am connecting on the level I need to be. I can see myself sitting in the wide open Universe;  my body is filled and connected to earth which is bringing in the pleasant smells of a crisp fall morning. Simultaneously I am connected to Source, which always brings in strong Feminine and Masculine energies at the same time. My body begins to go numb due to the intensity of this beautiful energy. The energy used to scare me. I always thought I was about to die or something terrible was happening, but not now. Now it feels like peace and calmness. I feel whole between the two connections of Earth and Source flowing through me. The energy looks amazing, and I see gold orbs flowing clockwise around my head. I know information is about to come in this way. My head chakras spin faster and faster, drawing in the light. Often it causes discomfort from the intensity of the light coming in, so when it happens, I ask it to slow just enough that I can continue my concentration. This time there are 12 orbs and while they all circle my head like the rings of Saturn they each spin individually in different directions. Each one is filled with information; I know the drill on this because this is usually how it happens.

The information that came through today was interesting, but like I said, I still don’t always understand it. When the individual orbs gain enough momentum to match up to the pitch of the smaller chakras they open and swirls of different light come out and fill the smaller chakras. The smaller chakras take this light in and bring it to the middle of the crown where all the information collects and settles. It looks like stardust and emits a sound that feels like pure bliss. The information travels to the heart where I can “see” it and often decipher the things coming through. Some days it is higher learning that I can understand and verbalize, but today it was mostly shapes and sound that came through. On days like this I can see certain images and a lot of times I will draw them out, so that I can understand their meaning later.

I have come to discover a lot through this process, a lot about energy channels in the body, as well as  using these images for grounding, centering or energy work. I hope one day I will be able to do the same with the different pitches, but for now, I will keep documenting the process.

 

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